Simple choices create wide circles of change
Jan 14th, and 15th at N.E.W
New Expressive Works/Studio 2-Zoomtopia
810 SE Belmont St, Portland, OR 97214
I had three students write out a poem about struggle. They memorized it, and recited it in the show. This was a first for all three of them! They accomplished this all on their own.
Pressure by Emma Stanton
Eyes from across the hall stare me down
Struggle by Sammy Bruce
Were taught to fit a mold
Upon first glance is she
Judgements come to mind
Whether you’re a good person or not
Who am I?
Am I a label or a list
Is my future aligned by fate or choice
By the face behind a clipboard?
We tell them we don’t care
Words. Don’t. Hurt.
Thats a lie
Because the worst judgement is the one in the mirror
The criticisms in, my, head
Reflected… on a piece of glass
Our. Worst. Enemy.
But what if no reflection existed?
Ourselves mirrored only in others words
They wouldn’t hurt as much
Because we can’t confirm it
No way of seeing the flaws
For each of us is vulnerable
We can block them out
But we Can’t. Ignore. Ourselves.
Crunch by Chloe Scott
Crunch. The stress kicks in.
Smack. Anxiety is taking over.
Slurp. My mind starts to race.
Chomp. My hands clench into fists.
My mind is whirring, anger sets in.
The sounds take over, I can no longer focus.
I’m anxious, I’m angry, I can’t think.
The sounds consume me.
I’m not functioning right, why am I this angry?
I don’t know why this is happening.
When will this be over, I can’t do this.
These sounds need to stop.
My misophonia is starting to take over my life.
When someone eats, I stress.
Sounds shouldn’t give someone this much anxiety.
Why does my brain do this.
I wish there was some way to control my reaction,
Misophonia ruins everything.
One simple sound can make my mind start to whirl.
Then the anger ruins everything.
If I see a twitch in someone’s jaw,
I start feeling anxious.
I panic, I wonder where I can escape.
I can’t ever get away from the stress.
Nerves, shaking, all kinds of anger
Stress and anxiety are surrounding me.
It’s like my mind is constantly fighting a war.
There’s a constant nagging in the back of my mind,
Reminding me I can’t escape.
Sometimes I wonder why I am like this,
I wonder why I can’t be normal.
Social situations ruined, family dinners going wrong,
My disorder affects everything.
I try to not react, I try to be normal
But the anxiety creeps into the back of my mind in no time.
I try not to be rude, I try to keep the anger in check
But somehow it always comes back.
I want to get better.
I want to find a way to eat with people normally.
I will control the anxiety and anger.
I will beat this.
Simple sounds don’t bug most people,
To others they can affect everything.
All Pictures by Jasmine Pham
Dance Variations Grants Pass Or.
A few photos from the trip.
All Photos By Alaina Wilson.